
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
8:41 PM
just came home not long ago
went out today after school.
went siglap macs then went
ok macs after that went sushi 1o.
after that went home.
got nothing to blogg about, so i shall blog nonsenses.
life is soo BORING i swear.
anyways, if you love her then go for her.
all i can do is just wish you the best.
hope you will be together again.
even if its hurting, i cannot do much.
this is meant for YOU*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MELANIE ! (:
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why
I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.
You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.
It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away
I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game
As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you
Your Name
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay
i found this somewhere. its nicee.
and that`s why i`m posting it.
anyways, i guess its bout you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
Yeah
I know sometimes things might not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What'chu crying about?
You got me..
Hailie, I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when I’m gone
But I’m trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you’re sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside, you wanna cry
Cuz you’re scared
I ain’t there?
Daddy’s with you in your prayers
No more crying
Wipe them tears
Daddy’s here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gon’ do it
Laini, uncle’s crazy ain’t he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We’re all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it’s confusing you
Daddy’s always on the move
Mama’s always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
the more it backfires on me
All the things, growing up
As daddy that he had to see
Daddy don’t want you to see
But you see just as much as me (to see?)
That we did not plan it to be this way
You’re mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don’t see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be when was teenagers
But then of coarse
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it’s just something
We have no control over
And that’s what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we’ll wake up
And this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mama’s gonna be alright
It’s funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up
and stuck them under the tree
and said some of them were from me
Cos daddy couldn’t buy ‘em
I’ll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night cryin’
Cuz daddy felt like a bum
See dadday had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money
For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you can go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama’s heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dads was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on the _?____ and the flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novarra
And that’s when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work
You and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn’t like it
And you and Laini were too young to understand it
Papa was a rolling stone
mama developed a habit
and it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin’ in this empty house, just reminiscin’
Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
It’s almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And daddy’s still here
Laini I’m talking to you too
Daddy’s still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?
Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby don’t you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya daddy’s here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy pretty baby
But I promise
Mama’s gonna be alright
And if you ask me to,
Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird
I’ma give you the world
I’ma buy a diamond ring for you
I’ma sing for you, I’ll do anything for you to see you smile
And if the mockingbird don’t sing and the ring don’t shine
I’ma break that birdy’s neck
I’ll go back to the ***eler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat
Don’t fuck wit dat.
haha
i LOVE this song now. its one of my favourite songs.
the lyrics are quite meaningful. (:
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
how i wish i could just die now.
i cannot stand living anymore.
shot me someone. let me rest in peace.
i`m sick and tired of everything that`s around me.
i ahtre the world, i hate my life. :(
fuck the world. fuck everything in it.
what`s the use of living in pain, sorrow.
everything is soo SHITTY-FIED.
nothing will seem to go your way. NOTHING !
actually, NOTHING has ever gne the way i wanted it too.
why ? soo other can get what they want,
live life they always wanted, have everything.
while, i watch in jealousy. life seems to be
horrible too me now. its just the things that are happening to me.
its soo irritating. i cannot stand it anymore.
i wanna DIE ! shot me, i will de and rest in peace after that.
i HATE this world. fuck everything in it.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
heloo. yeahh, i`m blogging again.
anyways, got back most of my results.
it was like shit can ? maths was the most horrible can ?
fuckk lah. i did like soo BADLY ! :((
soo irritating, i realised how badly i did.
ook finee, maybe i did not study and practise that well.
but that stupid mr chong cannot TEACH !
ook, well is partly my fault, for not paying attention in class.
ooh well. guess i shall TRY and do better next time
takecare all
iLOVEyou.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
we both know is better if we just let it go.
one last kiss,
one last touch,
one last tender moment between us,
one last dance to our first song
while we pretend there`s nothing wrong.
i LOVE this part of the song.
its one last by TAUFIK BATISAH. (((:
he rocks my world. i LOVE him.
take care alll. i LOVE you.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly
hmm. helooo, back from chek jawa.
its somewhere in pula ubin.
whaha actually i did not want to go in the first place.
but in the end, i went.
only 9 ppl went. 5 from our class.
and 3 from 2/3. so anyways,
we went with miss sheku sia. wtf only ?
it was quite boring sia. but i think its ok lah.
i had fun. so anyways, after that we went back to changi.
then we went to eat. i went home from venus`s dad car.
so yupps, i`m blogging now. anyways, we took losta pics ! :)
wooohoooooo. yupps.
i'llspreadmywings
anndlearnhowtofly